4/28/2006 noone but me from URL @ 10:07 PM approaching fifteen.
and so, this'll be my last post as a fourteen year old, not that it's gna be one of significance anyway.
HMMM. fourteen. i dont really remember much. (or maybe i do?)
full marks for a number of maths tests. i rememeber mr lam, mrs tai. the precious ndp rehearsals. running to school for morning pts. staying back playing the piano. getting high over her, people getting high over others. hurting someone. loveing someone. missing someone so much. crying at night. smiling at school. the laughter. sus's moodswings. our sickness. our cheap entertainment. mindy&mandy mock. my pools. the screams the frustrations the disappointment in drills. orienteering com. shooting com. the tears for everything. fakers. the friendship i thought almost perfect. decisions. loneliness. the bravo us. studying into the night. studying at changi airport. east coast park. my empty room. my empty house. my memories. say gooodbye. they wont last, probably except the boldened.
hmmm
i miss, GERALDINECHAI. morning pts. our sickness. getting high over someone. i miss east coast. i miss climbing the trees. i miss our wee hour conversations. i miss coming home for a reason. i miss knowing someone'd be there for me. i miss knowing that i had a friend next door. i miss knowing that i had a friend in my room. i miss you. i miss pumpings. i miss my pools. i miss endless drills. i miss the motivations. i miss the atmosphere. i miss loitering. i miss not having to have known. i miss not having to have known. oh boy, i do.
these were just what popped into my head. fourteen. you'll think you've got great friends. you'll think you're strong. you'll think that mask wont crack. you'll think you're alright. you'll think you can run away. you'll think it wont be too bad in the end. you'll think life sucks. you'll think there isnt a reason to live. well, i can say this for sure. NONSENSE. maybe its just me, but oh boy- look at the denial i was living in. HA HA.